#anyays. goodbye

[megastrikeback]

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[finalctutorg]

announcement about "Oddly friendship" comic or just related stuff

So in these months (until june I hope) I will be busy studying for a very important test and I also need to focus on school (it got hard sadly since is my last year of school) so I wont be uploading material until I finish school, sorry about it but sadly there are priorities outside, after I finish school I will go back to upload more stuff about "Oddly friendship" and ocasional ranfren fanart so its not a definitive goodbye lol. Also.. anyone can still send asks to me, even if I dont answer them at the moment, the plan is that when I have free time, answer them lol Anyays, thats all the announcement, bye!

[garoujo]

goodbye killing myself thought we were moots. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYAYS

WE ARE MOOTS WAT DO U MEAN ໒꒰⑅ㅠ·ㅠ⑅꒱১ but fank u bbie mwah ! mwah ! mwah ! <333

[peculiar-shardscape]

I was meaning to just check instagram before heading to sleep but this came up and I felt incredibly obligated to share this to you wooper posters

[amaru16495]

Expression

Why is it so hard for people to simply express how they are feeling ? Granted right now I am probably being the biggest hypocrite in the world because I tend to keep difficult emotions on lockdown but even so if someone asks me how I am feeling normally I am honest about it.

I also don’t understand why some people get their words and their actions jumbled. They say one thing but then act a completely different. Some people do it for the sole purpose of being misleading but I do not believe all people are being fictitious.

However no matter what your reasoning is for your misconstrued emotions it really leaves other people...to be blunt...losing their fucking minds.

I am going to tell a story from my own, very real, very current experience because I guess that’s why I am even writing this entry to begin with. I am very confused and getting more frustrated as the days go on.

I’ve been seeing someone for the last month, talking to him for more than that...probably close to two months now that I reallly sit here and think about it. Anyways he told me way back in the beginning that he is “emotionally stunted” and has a hard time expressing how he feels. Which is fine I get that. Which is why I never pushed him or was overly flirty like I normally am.

I am a person that when I am into someone I go full speed ahead. I focus on that one person. I am flirty, loving, I give them my full and undivided attention, in person I am all cuddly and cute, all about PDA. I’ve severely dialed that back with him.

Anyays e have gone out twice now. First date was a total bust, the place was too loud and crowded and we didn’t have much to talk about. We hugged at the end of it and that was it. Now when we text and stuff he calls me babe and compliments me to all hell. We talk about cuddling and kissing and all that crap but in person it is nooooooooothing.

Yesterday we went out for the second time and we cuddled in a bench which I guess that’s progress of some kind but again when we said goodbye no kiss or nothing. A long hug and he said something about wanting to make it last since we barely see each other but nothing. And I do not do noooot want to have to make the first move.

I am sick of doing that. It’s not my fucking job, not to be sexist or whatever but you are a man, please step it up a notch.

Plus my fear is that we are going to unintentionally friend zone each other because we’re both too scared to make any fucking moves. I really don’t want that to happen since I really do like him but I don’t know where he is at.

Normally I would straight up ask the person but I feel like it’s too soon. We’ve only gone out a few times and haven’t known each other that long, I don’t wanna push or scare him off I just don’t know what to do.

I know I should probably just remain calm and let the universe do what it’s going to buuuuut if we look back on past experiences we can see that that’s most definitely not the way intend to roll.

And the thing is I am not trying to rush anything. I am not ready for a ful, blown relationship yet. I am not ready for all the pressure that comes along with it, all the responsibility. Nope not ready but in the same respect I want to know where this is going. Do I drop all the other people I am talking to ? Should I be getting to know other people ? What am I doing with my life fool.

Like help lol. I’ve never been in this position before honestly. I have always been with someone who is completely open with how they feel and what they want. I’ve never had to really question it. And if I have had to question it I wasn’t afraid to do so. I wasn’t afraid to scare the person off.

I’m so lost and my girlfriends all tell me that I need to grow some lady balls and just ask him how he feels straight up. Which I understand pm they don’t want me to end up getting played or heartbroken. I’m just a chicken shit I suppose.

So yeah for the love of all that is good in this world be honest about your feelings. Be open with your thoughts. Make sure your words and actions line up.